I have only been in my job for 3 months and while I get along with most ppl..I still feel uncomfortable around alot of them. I think the mixture of ages is affecting that. They are either younger and single or no kids (im married with 2 kids) or they are older and have older families.
I find that mostly everyone is lovely but I dont feel I mesh with them as well I have meshed with colleagues in other jobs. I think perhaps its the fact that im nursing and im learning so many things and im so new that its all so overwhelming if that makes sense.
I have made a couple of good friends...ppl that I see out of work..but majority I dont. I know I may seem paranoid but I just wanted to ask the question. I know we cant get along with everyone and I certainly dont expect to fit in right away with a new team...but with some of them, as lovely as they are, I dont know if they want to let me in.
Its playing a part in me actually thinking I might try and change wards and try something new. I know all nurses can be like this and moving probably wont help matters but it seems from info I get this ward is pretty clicky and I dont think other wards have these same issues. I only feel supported by a small handful and I dont know if thats good enough.
I think part of it too is that I still dont feel overly confident in my work. I have heard nothing to say I am not doing well...i keep getting good feedback..but I still wonder...because I want to perform well and I work hard...I want to succeed.
Anyway this turned into a ramble that led nowhere lol.
Any responses would be welcome :)
